BRUTAL: Nightmare

This piece alone has an unnerving grip on my life, it is the closest I have come to a visual representation of a recuring nightmare I use to have as a kid, quite often, it is difficult to put it in a visual format as it was less a visual image and more of a feeling, but it was always accompanied by a sensation of something formless, huge, dark, it weighed down on me, as if gravity were intensified or my mass had increased.
The worst it ever got was during the only time I ever suffered from proper flu, I was running a huge fever and during one night I could see this form take shape as if it were in the room with me, the same sinking, heavy sensation.
Every now and then, very rarely and usually when I am ill, it comes back, briefly, but that same sensation is unlike anything I have ever experienced, and it is unmistakable.

I always wanted to try and visualise it, but I never felt comfortable or confident in doing so till recently. Now it exists, in semi-reality, I feel more connected to it, and I feel like it has been a secret influence to me especially as I explore my BRUTAL series. Facing nightmares.